Chapter 14 is the
second of three chapters (13-15) which Anonymous devotes to a sustained consideration
of the role of humility (meekness, in
Middle English) in our contemplative lives, telling us “why we must go through
imperfect humility to reach perfect humility.” Building upon the distinction he
made between imperfect and perfect humility in Chapter 13, he impresses
upon us the necessity of going through imperfect humility in order to arrive at
the perfect. We only get to the perfect (found in God) by means of experiencing
the imperfect.
We experience imperfect humility by getting to know ourselves as we truly are. Coming to such self-knowledge is backbreaking labor, but we embrace it because it is necessary if we are to experience God as best we can during this lifetime. To the degree that we allow ourselves to be meek imperfectly in self-knowledge, we arrive at a true knowledge and experience of God. Therefore, we will want to work hard on getting to know ourselves as much as possible.
Self-knowledge—an
awareness of our imperfect humility--leads to perfect humility, and such
self-knowledge is best discovered in “the singular worth of contemplative
work.” Anonymous says that discovery is best made when we “allow the hidden
love of [our] pure heart[s] to press against the dark cloud of unknowing
between [us] and God.” Such a pressing and impulse is “perfect humility. It
occurs without any special images or clear ideas.”
Although he doesn’t
say so explicitly (he will do so later), Anonymous is alluding to what some now
call Centering Prayer. In Centering Prayer we experience self-knowledge, let go
of such knowledge about ourselves, and allow the grace of God-given love to
take us into the Presence of God’s perfect humility. Commenting on Chapter 14 in
The Loving Search for God, William A.
Meninger wisely provides his readers a
beautiful set of guidelines on how to do Centering Prayer.[1] It’s by means of Centering Prayer, Meninger
says, that we become acquainted with perfect humility by experiencing and passing
through imperfect humility. Within contemplative quiet and stillness we come to
self-knowledge, let go of such imperfect humility (that is, self-knowledge),
and enter into the great unknowing of perfect humility with God. We move
through the imperfect humility to God’s gift of perfect humility.
In the final
paragraph of this chapter, Anonymous urges us to realize that any pride we
might take in working toward self-knowledge and anything beyond is
dangerous. “Those who believe that
they’ve ‘arrived’ have merely found another way to wrap themselves up in
filthy, stinking pride.”
How, then, do we avoid
pride and proceed so as not to arrive?
Does not Scripture help us in humility/meekness/knowing self? Romans 7, where Paul realizes that no good thing dwells in him,is, to me, the epitome of self-realization.
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